James Ashker

I didn't get a chance to say goodbye
To you, to tell you that I loved you, to say
What now must be one long, unbroken cry
Of pain, now that at last you've gone away.
I cannot tell you what a joy it was
To be the one to tend you in your need.
I wish I could have been with you when you,
Perhaps aware, perhaps not, turned towards death
Alone, with no one there to wonder to,
To share your fear, your hand, your one last breath.
I wish, I wish, I wish . . .

Best Friend 4 weeks ago

So sorry, I know the sorrow

James your story touched my heart so deeply when I read it I felt compelled to write this. To your family,, I am so very sorry for your loss, I know the horror and pain a family endures from such a terrible act of violence. As my family has been dealing with it for the past 15 years. My only brother was shot and killed by his wife in 1994. And she only spent 6 months in jail,, NO JUSTIC!!People Forget there are 2 sides to the domestic violence story,, THAT MEN ARE OFTEN THE VICTIMS ALSO!! And dead men cant talk to defend themseves, so a lot of women get away with murder. This is NOT RIGHT!!THERE SHOULD BE MORE AWARENESS TO THESE FACTS. My only solace is the beleif that you reap what you sow in life, so someday somehow there will be justic for you James and my brother Larry, handed down by a higher power.May you rest in Heavenly peace James, watch over your loving family and send them angel blessing for comfort.Bless you all,, Nila,xxxx

Nila Meehan September 21, 2009

Family

Who is this writing what you wrote, on Monday night? And what do you mean by it? You can send me a tribute to see what your response is.

Kelly Fee June 4, 2009

how could you do such a thing

how could someone do such a thing..
how do you feel about yourself?
someone has lost the chance to live.. to breathe..
so many are feeling the pain from a horrible lose.
how do you get animosity to do such a cruel thing!
he deserves the right to peace..
the right to shine his light and fly free,
spread his wings like the beautiful angel he now is..
your uncalled for act of cruelty isnt hurting him,
he cant be hurt now he is a higher power!
shine your light on the ones who deserve it james
i kow your shining bright i can feel you
i can see your smile in the sunlight ..
dont worry about the haters
they arent worth your warmth and shine.

love you james
xo

Ashleigh Taylor-Rae (Close Friend) April 5, 2009

WHO DOES THIS !!!!!!!!!!!!!april 1st,2009

ANYONE WJHO HAS ANY INFORMATION OR KNOWS ANYTHING FROM THE NIGHT HE GOT KILLED PLEASE COME FORWARD LET THE RCMP KNOW OUR FAMILY IS SO HURT THIS DOESNT END! AND ALSO WE NEED A WATCH ON JAMES GRAVE BECAUSE SOMEONE TODAY WHICH IS APRIL 1ST 2009 TRASHED HIS WHOLE GRAVE THE PICTURES THE FLOWERS AND EVERY MEMORY SOMEONE PUT THERE OF JAMES IS GONE AND TIPPED OVER AND JUST TRASHED ! NOW WE HAVE THE RCMP LOOKING OUT AND PLEASE YOURSELVES KEEP AN EYE OUT I DONT KNOW WHO WOULD DO SYCH A THING HE IS GONE PLEASE LET HIM REST IN PEACE YOU PEOPLE HAVE NO RESPECT(WHOEVER DID THIS) FOR THE DEAD , MY BROTHER I AM FURIOUS AND WEE NEED TO FIND THEM .

NEFERTITI ASHKER

ANYONE WITH ANY INFO PLEASE EMAIL ME AT ;

nefertitiashker.credico@gmail.com

Nefertiti Ashker (Sister) April 2, 2009

6mnths baby james miss you

james i can't believe it has been 6 months since you have been gone away,, theres only one thing i can say when i think about it.. and its that i miss you. words cannot explain how much you are missed by so many people. everyday i think about you and all the life you are missing out on, but i know your up there smiling down at me and the rest of the world.. i know your up there enjoying your life after death.. you are making the best of it and loving every minuite of your paradise up there. you were such a huge loss for us james still today it is so unbelievable that your gone, its like im still waiting for you too text me or call me and i know that wont ever happen. you know its crazzy cause when your growing up your always told that one day your gonna loose someone close to you and it hurts in sucha deep place, but you never think it will actually happen to you, and then the day comes when it really does happen and you loose someone you loved and cared about, and it really does hurt in sucha deep unexplainable part of you,, i felt that when we lost you james, the day of your funeral and forever,, still today your always on my mind your always in my thoughts in the back of my mind,, if i close my eyes i can see you james.. i hope you wont ever fade away. We love you so much james i dont understand how thing could have happened to someone so unique and special like you. you most deffinatly did not deserve what happened to you and i am so sorry the justice system in Bc failed you and let that psycho bitch get away with what she did to you,, but i hope you know that one day karma will come back around and she'll get her's dont chu worry baby boy. but for now i know your protecting us, shinin your light on the ones who deserve it, your our beautiful angel james and i know you will take care of the rest.xox
i miss you so much james, we all do, there are no words to express how much you are missed.
see you in my dreams baby
keep shinin we need you
forever & always
never say goodbye
love you
miss you

Ashleigh Taylor-Rae (Close Friend) March 22, 2009

James

jamers,
i miss you so much, i think about you all the time, when the moring comes and when the nighttime goes away. You mean so much to so many people, why did this have to hapen to you james. You were such an inspiration, you were always so bright and happy, so full of smiles and laughter, thats one thing i miss the most of you james is your smile. You had such an amazing drive in life james you could have been anything you wanted, gone anywhere, or seen anything but a selfish girl stole that away from you. So many people love you and wish you could just come back, but we know that can never happen and that hurts the most james. I know your up there shining and smiling down on us, protecting everyone you love, and each day we live for you and keep our head up high we love you sweetheart
keep shinin james
love yu
miss yu

Ashleigh Taylor-Rae (Close Friend) February 13, 2009

We Got You Your Fam

James what can I say the H0E got out shes FREE no parol no sentence no trial it got solved in four months B.S the laws are UNFAIR UNJUST and Dont make sense to the public there getting sloppy with it but I know karma the cosmics and THE MAN UPSTAIRS will take care of it for you JAMES we all know whats up he knows the true story and we will GET JUSTICE time will be served its not as easy as it seems we love you and miss you and will prey for you each and everyday your our baby your precious unique and a true charm you will always be remembered and this was all over LUST something that she couldnt have if she cant noone will well guess what THANK YOU FOR TAKING MY BROTHER OUT OF THIS MISERABLE LIFE HE WAS SUFFERING AND YOU JUST MADE IT BETTER FOR HIM AND WORST FOR YOU YOU THINK ITS OVER Hes in heaven now hes my guardian angel hes my light in the morning and my light at night he keeps shining and hes always with me even more now than ever He a higher power and he aint resting hes got work to complete
Love you always rest in peace my friend brother and one that means the world to me I love you ill see you at the golden gates for now i can talk to you and see you through the light MUAH xoxoxoxoxxo

Karmas Coming February 7, 2009

Older Sister and little brother

jAMES WE WERE UNBREAKABLE AS KIDS AND NO ONE COULD TOUCH US . I WAS WITH YOU EVERYDAY AND IF SOMEONE TRYED TO HURT YOU I HURT THEM ! I MISS YOU AND I WISH I WAS IN BC WHEN THIS HAPPENED BECAUSE MAYBE IT COULD HAVE BEEN STOPPED I WOULD HAVE NEVER LET THIS BIT$$ DO THIS TO YOU ! SO MANY OF US MISS YOU AND YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WERE RIGHT YOU DO KNOW PPL IN THE EAST AND THE WEST THE SOUTH. JAMES I JUST WANT YOU BACK AND I KNOW ITS NOT GONNA HAPPEN BUT I JUST TELL MYSELF YOU WENT ON A VACATION AND YOU WILL BE BACK SOON AND IT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER . SO I KNOW YOU WILL COME BACK TO ME SOON BECUASE ME AND YOU ARENT FINISHED LIVING . WE HAD SO MUCH WE TALKED ABOUT AND ON THE PHONE THE WEDNESDAY BEFORE YOUR EX DID THIS CR@P , I TOLD YOU I WAS COMING FOR CHRISTMAS AND NOW LOOK WHAT HAPPENED . PEOPLE ARE JELEOUS AND THAT GIRL I TOLD YOU SHE WAS TROUBLE FROM DAY ONE YOU COULD GET ANY GIRL YOU WANT . YOU ARE MY TRUE BROTHER YOU WERE THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEEDED YOU AND I WAS THERE WHEN YOU NEEDED ME .
THE STARS ARE THE ONLY THING I GOT AT NIGHT HOPING YOU ARE LOOKING DOWN ON ME AND JAMES WHEN YOU COME BACK FROM VACATION , I WANT MY HUG , CUZ WHEN YOU LEFT 2 YRS AGO FROM WINDSOR THAT WAS THE LAST HUG I HAD FROM YOU AND I STILL REMEMBER IT LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY ! I STILL FEEL YOU HOLDING ME SAYING ILL SEE YOU SOON HEIDI........

AND I WILL I WANT YOU BACK ,,, LOVE HEIDI( OLDER SISTER FOREVER) XOXOXOXOXOXO

PS ILL SEE YOU SOON HURRY UP ON THAT VACATION ITS TAKING FOREVER I WANNA SEE YOU THE STARS ARE BORING BUT YOUR ALWAYS FUN KISSES*****AND HUGS******

Nefertiti Ashker (Sister) January 25, 2009

Your Older sister heidi(nefertiti Ashker

JAMES I MISS YOU SO MUCH ME AND YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO GO TO HAWAII REMEMBE FOR A VACATION . IM MAD I DIDNT GET TO HUG YOU , YOU TOLD ME YOU WOULD BE BACK . I WANTED TO SEE YOU FINISH COLLEGE IM GONNA BE DONE IN A YEAR AND A HALF , BUT YOU WONT BE THERE AND FOR MY WEDDING AND MY KIDS YOU ARE MISSING . BUT THEY WILL STILL KNOW WHEN I HAVE THEM YO ARE THERE UNCLE . I JUST WANT A HUG FROM YOU JUST LIKE THE ONE YOU GAVE ME BEFOR YOU LEFT WINDSOR REMEMBER . COME TO ME IN ME DREAMS AND HOLD ME TIGHT PLEASE.

MY SOUL HURTS AND MY HERT CRIES ONE DAY WE WILL MEET AGIN ,
AND HEY KEEP TH GATES OPEM FOR YOUR OLDER SISTER K JAMES

PEACE LOVE HEIDI ASHKER(NEFERTITI)XOXOXOXOX

Nefertiti Ashker (Sister) January 21, 2009